Sunday, September 14, 2008

June 7

Natasha didn't call me until about 2 pm. She said that she had been trying to sleep as much as she could because she was having a hard time at night. When I picked her up, we decided to go to JoAnn's because she wanted to make us some dream catchers. She wanted to make one to put over the baby's crib, and I asked if she would make one for Kade as well. She then told me that she wanted to make a really nice 3 tiered one for me and Clint also. After two and a half hours, and over $100 we left. We got pizza on the way home and off to my house we went. We went outside to visit after dinner. After a couple of minutes, she started crying. She told me that she thought it would be easier, and hoped that she could do this without having any emotion about it. She said that she was having a lot of anxiety and didn't know how to handle it. I tried to reassure her and told her that she wouldn't be human if she didn't have any feelings about it. I told her that I really felt she was making the right decision, and that I was amazed at how selfless she was being. I said that she was giving us the greatest gift anyone could give. We kept talking for a while, and I shared a little about our church. I happened to be playing my flute the next day, and she wanted to go hear me. I told her what she could expect there, and she asked if they would pray for her. I told her that I would put her name in the temple, and briefly explained what that would do, and then I told her that if she wanted, Clint could give her a blessing. She said that she would really like that. After the blessing she asked if she could have another one the next day. I told her that if she came to dinner at Clint's parents with us, all the men could participate in the blessing. After a bit she calmed down and we all took her back to the hotel.